I think this is called late 20s crisis, which is that awkward stage in life where you really see yourself almost stuck in the same situations and you have no idea where you're going. It's not upsetting like it is frustrating...and also a little funny and at the same time it's definitely confusing.
The past three years have been a long chapter in my life that I am sure I will look back on and be impressed that I got through it...which I know I will. It's taken a long time to address some of those moments, but they have continuously given me a great amount of strength.
I look back and think about stories my grandfather use to share like that time he moved to New York City without knowing a word of English and had nothing but $10 in his pocket. He was able to live a life in Manhattan as a musician and never worried about a single thing in his life.
That attitude and that mindset taught me to face any obstacle, whether big or small with no stress and always a positive outlook. "What's the worse that could happen?" is what he would always say...in Hungarian.
Being in my late 20s and going through what others probably never experienced, is what I am grateful for but also feel like I am ready for a change...or a chance for a "do-over".
I hate the cliche that your 20s are a time for you to "find yourself", to discover "who you are"...blah, blah, blah. I think your 20s, like your 30s, 40s, 50s, etc. are moments in your life that shouldn't be repetitive. You should try new things, create new moments and challenge yourself to do what you feel versus stressing out about what is not right and could go wrong.
One of my favorite books, "The Art of Happiness" sums up a lot of what I believe in this hollistic way of living. The Dalai Lama shares a lot of interesting perspectives and one of them is his view on how we spend or waste time in our lives. He says, "sometimes when I meet old friends, it reminds me how quickly time passes. And it makes me wonder if we've utilized our time properly or not. Proper utilization of time is so important. Our day-to-day existence is very much alive with hope, although there is no guarantee of our future. There is no guarantee that tomorrow at this time we will be here. But we are working for that purely on the basis of hope. So we need to make the best use of our time."
So have fun, be strong, think positive and enjoy life.